summer.

Soo far the summer has been very good to me.

The Blackhawks won the Stanley Cup!!!! Toews got MVP and Kaner had the GW goal, super exciting time for Chicago right now! Also, I bought a brand spankin' new car!! Lol, he's a Red Kia Soul + and he's super cute. I named him Martin.

Other things going on have been kinda rough. My personal life hasn't been going so good in the relationship department. Why can't I find a guy that hasn't been screwed over or messed with from another girl. I feel like I'm always licking the wounds for them. Are there any good looking/not fucked up guys out there my age anymore? Bahh this just makes me soo sad. I find someone I like a lot and it always ends bad, what's my problem?? I've been feeling really depressed lately about it too, hopefully this feeling will cease.

And in other news, just so we don't end on a low note, work has been great. I enjoy being there during the day, although the getting up at 6 a.m. part sucks. Before we know it the Bears will be in town and then school will be starting again.....then it's back to nights, lol.

She was made to blow you away.

She don't care what any man say.

This weekend was great. Paigie Steph came home from South Africa and the girls met up for dinner and a movie on Friday. I myself didn't go to the movie since I had seen it earlier in the week with my sis, but still it was a good time. Then I went out to see the new crew and that was a good time, what a random ass night, lol.

Saturday was just as fun. Markie D hosted Paige's coming home party and everyone was there. I hadn't seen a lot of those people in so long, it was great. Although around 10 at night, there was an awful storm/tornadoes that swept through St. Anne, luckily my parents house was okay, but our neighbors house, not so much.

Friday night I also had an epiphany. I know I have them all the time, but this time was different I think. I'm done trying to please everyone. This is my life and I'm the only one I have to answer to, so why try so hard to make everyone else happy if I don't keep myself happy? Sounds like a good idea to me. HA

Peace.

quarterlife.

I had an absolutely amazing 25th birthday. Prolly the best one since my 21st, lol.
I'm just glad I have good friends who took time out of their busy lives to enjoy my birthday with me (wink, wink). Playing Rock Band/Guitar Hero for hours and eating IHOP at 6 am is just lovely!!

Now I gotta figure out something awesome for my seester's 21st, because I don't want to disappoint her. My 21st was pretty freaking great, so I'm gonna have to make sure that happens for her too!

oh yeah.

I had a much better day today.

The shower got fixed finally, now both the shower knobs are fastened tighter which makes it a whole lot better since they don't leak anymore either, lol.

I can't wait till Saturday. The whole fam, my roommate and I will be enjoying dinner at Brickstone and then later my friends and I will have a late supper at Oliver's Bar and Grill and get our drink on. I'm pretty stoked about it. Even though it's just gonna be a few of us, it still will be a grand ole time, lol.

completely unnecessary.

What a trip that kid is. Seriously, I'm not crazy, I just speak honestly and when I have something to say I say it.

Watch out for this boy girls, he's one of those "you're clingy" guys. What is it with guys labeling girls that? If we show them that we care it automatically comes off as being clingy? Every guy is different, it's either he wants you around every living second or he wants you around only when he feels like it. I've never had a guy call me this before it's new news to me.

Oh and I'm creeping. So everybody since I added you as a friend on Facebook obviously I'm being a creeper cause I want you as a friend. Not at all true. I feel like FB is an outlet, just like this blog here and if I want to be your friend then who cares. If you want to ignore it then ignore it, don't be shitty and talk to your friends about how some random chick added you on FB the other day and you've met them at least once before, geez. People seriously need to get a life if they think cause I added you as a friend means I'm creeping, wow. I mean I've added Chris Duhon and Kirk Hinrich as friends and we've never met, it's just something to do. It doesn't mean I'm gonna be all up in your shit telling you what to do or whatever.

Bahh, I really just don't get how people love to cause drama. I'm a pretty awesome chick, I like sports, I'm pretty, I have a good sense of humor, I have a lot of common sense and I like to have fun, sooo why do you feel the need to start drama with me? Where does it all come from? Just leave me the fuck alone, if I want to get drunk and make a fool of myself I will and nobody is stopping me. I'm my own person and I've done good things and bad things, people do make mistakes, but why am I getting ridiculed for something I didn't do?

I'm just sick of it all. I'm happy and content with life right now, but really people just need to back off and let things go. Have fun and enjoy the moment, because you never know when all this fun shit will be done.

change is gonna come.

Whether I like it or not, change is gonna happen and it already has in some places.

The new b/f didn't work out. It's sad I know, but in a way I'm happy. I helped him realize that he missed his ex and I'm okay with it. I mean I can sit here and be mad OR I can be happy that someone else is happy to have him back. My life seriously is a movie right now or just a Sex and the City episode, lol.

I have been through a lot and I've realized that there's no point in being angry or mad at someone who's obviously feeling something for someone else. I feel like I've grown up a lot in just the past few months, hell even the past year or so just being on my own has really helped me get to know my true self. I've always tore myself down in the past and I really shouldn't be doing that, I'm a really cool girl and I deserve the best and my time will come.

80s

I just got done watching "Say Anything" for the millionth time and I can't help but tell everyone that I've always had this thing for John Cusack. I mean it's no secret, my sister knows I love him, but not many of my friends know of this obsession, lol.

Also on that note, I kinda hide the fact that I absolutely love the 80s. I feel like sometimes I'm a generation late. Somebody said to me at the bar last night, "what do you think you are, educated?" I guess I must have sounded informative on that fact that I knew what I was talking about when movies were the main topic. Made me feel special in a way.

Plus another guy said to me "how are you not married?" Yes I was at the bar, and yes he's engaged to another girl, but this guy is a pretty good friend of mine and I was pleasantly surprised with that statement, but grateful. He said I'm a catch and couldn't understand how nobody has snatched me up yet. Very cute. He just doesn't know how I am in relationships, lol. I'm not up to par with how to play the "game" and I love a person one day and hate them the next, that's just me.

Maybe John Cusack will come sweep me off my feet.

Oscar nite.

And the Oscar goes to........

Another Academy Awards has passed and I'm sitting here again loving every minute of it. Why is that? Why do I get so wrapped up in these people that I hardly know and feel like I'm living their lives? I don't know to tell you the truth. It was another great show if I may say, here are some highlights...

• First I must tell you, the amazing montage of John Hughes films was the first time I teared up during the show. To see all the kids he worked with, especially Macaulay Culkin and how he got kinda choked up, made me realize how great Hughes really was as a person.

• Next has to be Kathryn Bigelow winning best director. She breaks a barrier for all of us women and I have so much respect for her. The Hurt Locker deserves recognition and I'm happy they both got a gold statue.

• Okay the horror montage was a bit outta sorts for this kinda award show, but it was well done and put together perfectly with the background music. Did I say I love horror films?

• Sandra Bullock, you help me understand that being original is soo much better than being someone you're not and I feel that because of you, I am who I am today. That no matter what people tell you, be yourself and that's all that matters.

• Oh Jeff Bridges you've come a long way and I'm glad you finally got recognized for it and I'll never forget a little movie called Stick It.

• ...the dance sequence for all the original scores was pretty freaking awesome, good job Academy!

• On the flip side, sorry Academy I'm gonna tell you again I dislike the live music during the "In Memoriam." It takes away from the montage on screen and they have close ups of the singer?? I mean come on, I wanna see those pictures! p.s. you forgot Farrah Fawcett and Bea Arthur, bah humbug!

Just a few of the many great moments tonight at the Academy Awards. Please cast Alec Baldwin and Steve Martin again, they always do a good job. Goodnight all.

oh the reality.

So things turned out to be a lot more screwed up than expected. I can't understand how I believed this kid for so long...oh well reality sets in and I'm glad I figured everything out now instead of down the line when it really matters.

My sister and I are okay now, which is good. I was pretty upset about that, but it's all fine now.

a bad week.

So far this week has been pretty sad.

Ericka Schriefer died in a snowboarding accident and it's been tough on her family and friends. It's so hard on the ones she left behind, but I know that wherever she is she's enjoying it just as she did here. She was one of a kind and will always be remembered for how she could light up the room whenever she entered. I don't know how to make this better, but I know after a while the pain will go away eventually.

I'm just not motivated to do anything. This winter has hit me the hardest and I feel soo out of it. Paige is gone and I feel like my world is a little bit bluer while she's away.

All I can do is patiently wait for things to happen. Hopefully by summer my life will be a bit brighter.

stuff.

The Golden Globes were last Sunday and oh were they great. Lots of new winners this year and it definitely made my night. I can honestly say I teared up during a lot of the ceremony. Marty Scorsese winning the Cecil B Demille award was just icing on the cake.

You're so money and you don't even know it.

Two words, Dunn Inn. We must go there more often.

My cousin is on her way to South Africa. She's studying abroad there this semester. I'm so excited for her. I'm thinking I might visit her too, but I don't know for sure yet.

Crap, somethings wrong with me.

Okay wait, I think I'll be alright.....

.....cause I have to be.